Awareness of being a woman

I was feeling so lonely that night, without a sense of life, a sense of my future. I didn't know who i was anymore. I mean, if i was an optimist or a pessimist. You know... one day you wake up like a super woman, like the strongest and positive woman in the world and no one can scare you..and another day you wake up like the worst and loser person of the world. You feel like an idiot who can't do anything good. Future becomes something so far and long to reach and your entire universe fall down in a black big hole. Why are we women so twisted? Why nobody didn't create a magic pill for our vulnerable mood? Is there a possibility to be stable for one time? I leave you the answer..